In the Trenches.

Yesterday I wrote about all the televison shows that I watched while I was recuperating from surgery and then tapering off my meds. It was during this time that I discovered the blog world. A random post on Facebook led me to to read this blog, and it spiraled from there.

The blogs I read are very random. Many of them are Mommy blogs geared towards young mothers. Why do I read them? I really have no idea. I just happened upon a lot of them and then stayed out of curiosity. These are the blogs that are in my reader, in no order of importance, and they are random as hell. Most of them would probably not even realize I follow them, as I am not much of a commenter.

From Mrs. To Mama
Summer's Story
The Smelly Life
Life as a Thrifter
Gluten-Free Girl and the Chef
Finding Joy in the Journey
Mama Laughlin
The Lettered College
One Good Thing
Mrs. in Training
Getting Fritzy With It
Our Extraordinary Life
Mr. and Mrs. and 4 Little Misses
MODG
Enjoying the Small Things
GOMI
Sarah Sitting Down
Smugmom
Papyrus Smear
Joy the Baker
The Happiness Project
Dig This Chick
Mrs. Odie
Raising Colorado

I love them all but I have a special place in my heart for Amanda who is the voice of MODG. I first read her blog from some random Halloween link-up I think, where she was stressed out about her toddler son not wearing his costume properly. She seemed like one of the Real Housewives (but way better looking). I bookmarked her blog and moved on.

Last February, there was a crisis in my family and I thought my world was going to end. It was a time of trauma, uncertainly and pain, a time where I was pushed to the very limits of my endurance. For two weeks, I was so worried about a loved one, I could barely breathe. I didn't sleep, I sat in a chair and while fielding phone calls I aimlessly poked around the internet. In my bookmarks, I found the MODG blog and I went to the beginning and read every blog post she ever wrote. It was an oasis in a storm for me. I followed her journey from Martini's (newly married) to Diaper Genies (baby) and fell in love with her quick wit, sarcasm, and good writing. It is an odd thing to read a blog that was written over a few years, over a few weeks, as you see someone's life story unfold. I watched Amanda grow up and become a loving, doting mother of one child, and now two. For all her fun and drama, I see right through her. Underneath her sarcastic wit, she has the biggest, loving heart  of any blogger I have ever read.

And she provided a comfort to me during that time I will never forget.

You get to know someone's heart when they are down in the trenches with you and although Amanda didn't know she was my fox hole buddy, I know, and I will always remember how her bright and charming posts got me to the other side of an experience I didn't think I would survive.

I will always be grateful to her for that.

The crisis of last February continues to ebb and flow and right now it is gushing. <--------(Does that even make sense?) I continue to read these blogs, watch some shows, and to pray my brains out for better days ahead. OMG, I hope Someone is listening because this is bigger than even MODG.